Today

Today, on the drive to Houston, I was honest with myself about some of the things I've been incapable of doing that with in the past. It felt good.

Some of the topics:

1.) My discontentment with the church as a whole. This quote pretty much sums it up: "Christianity began as a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. When it went to Athens, it became a philosophy. When it went to Rome, it became an organization. When it went to Europe, it became a culture. When it came to America, it became a business." (no idea where it's from, but props to whomever).

2.) General confusion about my life's path and whether or not it involves a ministry directly rooted in a church or denomination, instead of a ministry of helping those in need in some (currently) unknown way.

3.) Confession of some things I'd been previously unwilling to admit, mostly involving bad motives for saying some of the things I've said, primarily from the pulpit, but extending from there into "normal conversation.

4.) A realization that many things I've preached in the past are not necessarily true. I believed them at the time, but the fact is, I'm still trying to figure a lot of it out. There are a lot of things I think I know, but I'm still deciding on, which leaves a lot of room for error.


Don't mistake my logic here. I love God's church....the people, but the nauseating factor is what those people that I love (previously including yours truly) have turned the church into.....a business.

I know this may not interest many of you, but I needed to type it out. Writing about things makes me feel better.